Those are my notes for this week! I hope everyone is having a great Tuesday.
Great Stress Relief
13 Apr
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The 25th
27 Nov
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Well it has been a long couple of days that is for sure. It seems like this time of year gets so busy and I get so tired so quick because of the MS and what not. Well where to begin. . . it seems like so much has gone on that I am going to just go by events and this may turn into a few post because I don’t want it to be super long or anything.
I am going to start with the the day before Thanksgiving. I had to work this day but the owner let us go at about 3:30 so we got out of there really early which was nice that is for sure. It gave us a jump on the traffic. After work I hung out at Misti house until it was time for my surprise. Josh didn’t make it in time for it but he did make into to town that night. Anyways my surprise was getting my nails done!!! I have wanted them done for awhile but I haven’t wanted to spend the money to get them done. So he had Misti go with me. She stayed for awhile and then she had to go so she could help her mom make pies for Thanksgiving. Here is a picture so you can see what they look like.
It is hard to tell but they are red on top with a silver fade. I did them these colors for Christmas and News Years. Also while we were at work we decorated cookies to look like turkeys. They were super fun but time consuming. We didn’t know if we would have time after work so we did them during work because we had nothing better to do. Here is a couple of pictures of them so you can see what we did. If you want the recipe let me know and I will send it to you.
They were fun and they were a hit at my dad’s house.
Tomorrow I am going to write about Thanksgiving and my birthday!
Hope everyone had a great turkey day and remember how much we have in this country to be thankful for!!!!
Update
19 Oct
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It seems like I has been forever since I have posted anything about me so we will see what I can do about updating everyone to what is going on with me. I am sick and frustrated with the world. Not only am I sick I am also PMSing which is never a good combo for me or for other people that I am around. They will learn one day that I am not very nice when I am sick let alone when I am getting ready to start. I was so out of it I didn’t even really watch football hence the reason I didn’t post about football yesterday or Saturday. I watched parts of it on Saturday but I couldn’t get into it so I didn’t bother watching it all. Then yesterday when I wanted to watch football the Colts had a bye week so they weren’t playing. Oh well there is always next week to watch football and my Colts play next week so I will have more football to watch.
The girls are being there usual balls of energy. Sylvia was literally up all day yesterday so she only got up to eat this morning and then went right back to bed. She does that all the time where she will stay up for a whole day and then sleep for next three days only getting up to eat and go to the bathroom. I will never figure her out that is for sure. Then again they are cats no one will ever figure them out. I decided this weekend that dogs are cats that have down syndrome. Ok it was funny at the time but not so much now as I type it. I hate dogs!!!!!!! Anyways now that I got that out of the way lets see what else have the girls been up too…other than Ellinore throwing up for the whole weekend. Other than that it was just a great weekend with the girls! Lol
Since I have been sick I really haven’t done much so there isn’t much to really say about the last week. All I know is I have been swamped at work so I haven’t had much time to write and there hasn’t been a lot to say.
So I hope everyone had a great weekend and has a great Monday. 
Five Word Challange
11 Oct
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I was reading But Such Is Life and on there she did a five word challenge. It looked really fun so I got my five words and now I am going to do it. My five words are: cats, health, fun, holidays, work. So here goes nothing:
Cats: I love my girls. They are just like kids to me and that is how I treat them. They act like kids because I refuse to believe that they are anything but kids. One lady at the nursing home that I used to work at told me to raise pets instead of kids. I thought about this and decided that it was great advice. I am just going to raise animals and not have to worry about raising kids. I have two girls right now named Sylvia and Elinore. I have had cats since I was a little girl and I plan on having cats as long as I am able to take care of them.
Health: This word is something that I am struggling with. I have Multiple Sclerosis. I was diagnosed when I was 16 and now it is just getting worse. I am on new medication and that is risky but it isn’t really helping. I wish that I could be someone who didn’t have a life changing disease. It seems like something is always wrong and nothing ever go right. I have also met alot of great people that are going through the same things I am going through. The hardest part of it all though is being so young and having a disease that people get when they are older. I mean now more people my age are getting it but it still sucks being so young and knowing that at any point I might not be able to walk or see. I know that it may never happen but I guess the fear of the unknown is really getting to me.
Fun: I haven’t had a lot of fun lately because I have been so sick but I love to go out and go shopping. I will try just about anything once. I love shopping and it is the most fun I have. Fun is something that I am trying to have more of in my life but it tends to be hard to find because I am sick and tired a lot of the time. Fun for me is turning out to be blogging and messing around on Facebook.
Holidays: I hate most holidays. They are great because I get the day off of work sometimes but they suck because they are a waste of time and money. I think the only holiday I really like is Thanksgiving and that is only because my birthday is always around it and people tend to skip it. I like to go for things that most people don’t really like or that get skipped. Most of the time I hate going with what the crowd does.
Work: I hate working. I know it is a nessicary evil but it still sucks. Right now I am a receptionist for a HVAC company in Salt Lake City. I used to be a CNA and I really loved that job until I hurt my back. I can’t do that anymore and it totally sucks ass. I really loves working with the old people and helping them. I hope that one day I will be able to fix my back and go back to doing what I love to do.
If anyone would like to take part in this leave me a comment and I will comment on your page and give you your five words. This makes it easier to write about things when someone gives you words or a prompt to do!
TGIF
2 Oct
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It is finally Friday!!! It has been a super long week and I am so glad that it is almost over. It has seemed like nothing was really going right for me either. So I have started reading other blog’s that I have found. Most of them are funny and it gives me something to look forward to when I am down like I have been lately. I keep trying to get over this funk that I am in but I am sure having a hard time doing anything anymore. It is all I can do to get up and come to work anymore.
Josh will be here this weekend and I am not sure how I feel about it right now. I think I am going to make him go with me and I am going to get my new lap top to try and cheer myself up. I am sure it will back fire because then I will have to pay for it. So maybe I will wait until Christmas to get it. I am sure I will just wait but that is a hell of a long time without playing my game. I am not sure how I feel about it at all but since I wrecked my car I don’t really have a choice anymore.
Grandma and Grandpa started at the prison yesterday. Needless to say they didn’t like it at all. Grandpa said that he was related to a lot of them. I was like ya you probably are because we seem to be related to the whole damn state. They didn’t like it at all they aren’t looking forward to doing at all but they agreed so they have to keep doing it until they get released from the calling. I am sure they will get used to it over time. I am sure that the first time it was really scary for them but in time they will get used to it and see the same people most of the time. Like I told them they are dealing with the best of best at the prison because if they are bad they don’t get the chance to do things like family history and what not. So they shouldn’t be scared the prisoners don’t wanna do anything to mess up getting out of their cells.
I have started to wonder about the government in this country and some of the laws. Misti made me see that some of the laws in this country don’t make any sense what so ever but at the same time just because it sucks doesn’t mean that we don’t have to follow them. There are things I don’t agree with and then there are other laws that I wish had been in place awhile back but that is just how I look at it. I really wonder how many people that are locked up really didn’t do what they are in there for and then how many people that really did do it got off because of some peoples choices and lack of evidence.
Just some random thoughts for a Friday! Have a great weekend!
Thurday Update. . .
1 Oct
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It has been a super long week to say the least. It seems like this week has been pure hell for me! Nothing has gone right I feel lost and confused to say the least. I am still depressed and I am not sure why I am feeling this way still. I guess it is just my brain hating me.
I got to go and get my car yesterday!!! I was excited to get it back and able to see and make sure that they fixed it right for me. Now it was nothing but a hassle when I showed up to get her. First off she wasn’t ready yet and to top it off the issue with the insurance company hadn’t been resolved yet. So I had to pay more than my deductible. Now I have to see if I will really get reimbursed for the extra amount I had to pay. I am doubting that I will ever see that money again. The body shop does great work but the are lacking in the customer service to say the least. So I was really frustrated with them for not having my car done and making me pay more than what I should have but that is life I guess. You can’t even tell that it has been wrecked so that is nice. At some point I am going to have the whole thing repainted to cover up the scratches that are on it.
Work has been a joke all week long. We have been super busy and it seems like I can’t get anything do at all. I keep trying but once I get one project done I end up getting five more. I haven’t been this busy in a very long time. I hate it when I can’t get things done it makes it super stressful for me but I guess at some point it will all get done. I am trying not to stress about it anymore. I will just do what I can get done and not worry about the rest of it anymore.
The girls are all sorts of confused on the weather and why it is so cold out there. I wouldn’t let them go outside yesterday when I got home and they were pissed off to say the least. Oh well the will get over it soon enough. They have to eat a lot more to put fat on for the winter or they won’t be going outside at all during the winter. I know they will start eating like crazy and put on some more weight. I love when they are little pigs during the winter time. The look so cute when the put on a little bit extra weight. I am sure Sylvia doesn’t have to put much on because of all the damn fur that she has.
LONG WEEK SO FAR
16 Sep
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Well it is finally Wednesday!!! It seems like it has taken forever for it to get here that is for sure. I haven’t even played my game the last two nights! I know something must be wrong with me. I always play my game and watch Heroes. Oh well guess I will do that tonight. I have to start working on Misti’s Christmas and Birthday present. I can’t believe it is almost our birthdays again. We want to do something but we aren’t sure what we wanna do yet. Anyone have any ideas for us?????? We want to do something combined because her birthday is on the 22nd and mine is the 26th. Hard to believe that we have such close birthdays and we are as close as we are. She wrote me a letter yesterday and said things to me that I have forgotten about myself. It is amazing that you forget things or think that you aren’t something but other people see you as that. Like being a strong person. I don’t see myself and strong at all and yet Misti says she looks up to me because I am so strong. I don’t see myself as strong at all. I think I am to stubborn to let the world win so I do anything to not let them win. People that really know me know that I hate to lose and I hate people to be right about me. I will almost anything to make sure I am always right and I love proving people wrong!
I hate Tuesdays!
15 Sep
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I have decided that today is worst day of the whole week. It totally sucks!!! I hate how Tuesdays are always just there. There is never anything good about them. I have never had a good Tuesday. Today I am super busy and that always makes Tuesday even worse. I am really close to catching up though so that will be great!!!!!!!! It is hard for me to believe that I am the receptionist and I can be behind. I guess I am an over achiever. I am doing so much here I feel bad for the person that is going to come in and take my spot some day. I think after I am gone the guys will see how much I do. I have been here two years as of yesterday. I can’t believe that I have been here that long. Some days it seems like just yesterday that I started and other days it seems like I have been here for ever. It is weird how time passes and how you just adapt to a job even if you don’t really like it. This job has it’s good and bad points but I am just thankful that I can still work and that I have a job in this economy!
I have given up on the whole losing weight. It seems like no matter what I do nothing really changes so I am just going to do me and to hell with losing weight. I know in time that things will change but I am not going to stress about it or work out all the damn time. I am going to eat in moderation and not deprive myself like I have been because I want to lose weight so bad. I know when I lost it all before I wasn’t doing anything differently than what I have always done. So from now on if I want a soda every now and then I am going to have it and if I want fries I will have them at times. I am tired of eating only good things and not losing anything! So from now on I will eat what I want when I want to eat it! I am done caring about what people tell me to do to lose weight cause none of it has worked for me! I will keep going to the gym when I feel like it but not going to push it if I don’t feel like going. Like tonight I am just going to walk on the river trail after work and call it good. I may go home and do some crutches and lunges but other than that I am not going to do a whole lot. I guess all I need to do is enough to keep active and keep the MS at bay for awhile. I know that I am getting weaker and my only hope is that if I keep working out I will be able to walk and get around with out a wheel chair for a little bit longer!
The cooler weather is making the girls go nuts. This morning I stepped on Sylvia and was worried that I hurt her. So I called home when I got here and Grandma said that she was running and jumping all over the place so I guess she is ok. I hate it when they lay in the hall in the dark cause when I step on them I almost fall and one time I may hurt them but they always lay in the dark in the middle of the hall way. Guess one day they will learn if they get tired of getting stepped on.
11 Sep
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Well I am at the infusion center as I type! I found a wireless network! I was super excited now I can surf the web and post to my blog. It gives me so much more to do! I am still in pain from working out on tuesday. It totally sucks ass to still be tired and sore from a work out on Tuesday. Gabe told me yesterday that it will be about a week or so before it all goes away and gets better for me. I hope it isn’t that long i don’t know if Ican manage to be that sore for that long. All I can do is wait and see what happens.
I am super excited for football tomorrow. I am bummed that the U game is so late though. I am not sure if i willl have a tv to watch it on. I will be totally bummed if I can’t watch it. I am excited to see how they will do this week. It should be a good weekend for football thought!!!!!! There is nothing better than a weekend full of football and no drama.
The infusion is going really well this time! It is about time as well. I am glad it is going good so that I am going to be ok at work. I wish I had rest of the day off but I have to start to go to work after them. It sucks but I have to do what I have to do to keep my job. I know I will survive it. I am sure that I will get used to it thought. It is all how I look at it and i am going to be positive about it from now on.
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NOT IMPRESSED
4 Sep
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WELL I WAS TOTALLY NOT IMPRESSED LAST NIGHT WHEN I WATCHED THE UTES PLAY. THEY REALLY REALLY SUCKED TO SAY THE LEAST. I HATE IT WHEN YOU EXPECT GREAT THINGS AND YOU GET LET DOWN. OH WELL HOPEFULLY THEY WILL GET BETTER THIS COMING WEEK NOW THAT THEY KNOW WHAT THEY HAVE TO WORK ON. I WAS REALLY IMPRESSED WITH UTAH STATE THOUGH. YOU HAVE TO GIVE THEM PROPS FOR HOW HARD THEY PLAYED AND HOW THEY STUCK WITH THE UTES. AT TIMES THEY EVEN MADE US WORK FOR IT. THERE WERE A FEW TIMES THAT I WAS SCARED THAT THEY MIGHT ACTUALLY WIN BUT WE PULLED OUT A WIN RIGHT AT THE END.
I DID GO THE GYM LAST NIGHT AND WALKED FOR 15 MIN’S AND RODE THE BIKE FOR 30 MIN’S. I AM SLOWLY WORKING UP TO A LONGER WORK OUT. AT SOME POINT I HAVE TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO USE THE WEIGHT MACHINES SO THAT I CAN LIFT WEIGHTS TOO. WE WILL WORK UP TO THAT POINT THOUGH. I AM NOT SUPER EXCITED TO USE THE WEIGHT MACHINES BUT IT WILL BE GOOD FOR ME AND HELP ME LOSE MORE WEIGHT.
I AM SUPER EXCITED THAT IT IS FINALLY FRIDAY!!!! IT HAS BEEN A REALLY LONG WEEK AND I AM IN MUCH NEED OF A BREAK THAT IS FOR SURE. I HAVE BEEN SUPER BUSY ALL WEEK LONG AND I AM SO GLAD THAT TOMORROW IS SATURDAY AND I DON’T HAVE TO DO ANYTHING! I CAN JUST SIT AROUND AND DO A WHOLE LOT OF NOTHING. IT IS ALWAYS NICE TO JUST RELAX AFTER A LONG WEEK AT WORK. THIS WEEK HAS BEEN SUPER STRESSFUL AS WELL SO I AM GLAD THAT IT IS ALMOST OVER.
MY NEXT INFUSION IS ON FRIDAY SO I AM STARTING TO GET REALLY REALLY TIRED AND THAT ALWAYS SUCKS MAJOR ASS. I HATE IT WHEN MY INFUSION WEARS OFF AND I AM BACK TO BEING TIRED ALL OF THE TIME. IT SUCKS TO HAVE TO GO THROUGH THIS AND KNOW THAT THE MEDICATION MAY NOT BE WORKING ANYMORE. I HATE IT WHEN I AM SPENDING SO MUCH MONEY ON IT AND IT MAY NOT WORK. OH WELL GUESS TIME WILL ONLY TELL WHAT HAPPENS WITH ME AND THE MEDICATION. I DON’T KNOW THAT IT IS WORTH IT ANYMORE. WE WILL GIVE IT SIX MORE MONTHS AND SEE WHAT THE NEXT MRI SAYS. IF I AM STILL GETTING WORSE THEN I AM GOING TO STOP TAKING IT AND WE WILL SEE WHAT THE DOCTOR WANTS TO DO FROM THERE.
